Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Just a regular journal entry

Okay, so this is just going to be a normal journal entry--what's on my heart, fools.  It's a great de-stressor (<--is this a word??) for me.

It's finals week.  It sucks.  I still have three more finals to take, which I'm pretty sure will all happen tomorrow.  Yay.  Everyone's been publicizing about that on their Facebook status, but I'm choosing the blogging world medium for people that might care.  It's okay if you don't.  I barely do.  (Just kidding.)

I'm learning a lot about faith right now.  Right now I'm especially grateful for my mom who always listens to me.  It must be really hard for her--having a 4 year-old with 4 year-old issues, a 14 year-old dealing with dramatic friend issues, a 17 year-old boy who needs his butt kicked into gear (and college) and then me, the should-be-independent 21 year-old needy child calling constantly from 1000 miles away, probably sucking more time and emotional energy than the three younger kids combined.

On faith: you need to make (and take) your decision and *move on.*  Don't look back and be the pillar-of-salt woman.  Live in the present--not dwelling on the past or getting stuck in your plans for the future.  Be engaged in your life right now.  This is what you have--your friends, your job, your classes.  Here and now.  This particularly applies to me right now in moving on from my ex, pressing forward with my decision to stay in school right now and not go on a mission, and continue to work towards applying to the Dietetics program.  It's better to walk in the dark with God than in the light alone.  

Today I studied for a long time.  I need to study longer.

I have to pack up my room this week because I'm switching rooms.  

I need to pray harder.  And eat healthier.  

There's a potential for me to go on a date when I get back home, but I don't think I'm going to go.

So yeah.

Monday, December 10, 2012

That moment when...

So this entry is going to be the first of a series, kind of like my "Week in Pics."  It's going to be called "That moment when..." and it's going to illustrate highlights of the week in my life and special insights into my mind.

Okay.  *Ahem.*  That moment whennnnn....
  • you realize that despite your efforts this semester, you are pretty much still the same weight as the past three years.  Hooray for consistency, right??
  • you refrain from flirting with your coworker because it would threaten the loyalty you have to your imaginary boyfriend.
  • you finally take a shower and realize it's been longer than is socially acceptable since you've last showered.
  • that you actually CAN in fact flirt and nothing is inherently wrong with you.  The only problem is the people you can manage to flirt with are lots of boys...other than your crush...
  • you realize that you need to tone down your sarcasm because people don't know you and that you're actually being hilarious.
  • you get a haircut and let yourself believe in your hair again.
  • you wonder how you made it to the end of the semester and you start reflecting on what you've learned (oooh, that sounds like future blog entry material!!)
  • you realize that tonight is probably the last time in a REALLY long time that you'll go to Yogurtland with one of your best friends.
  • you see that you have so much to do that you enter into "numb" mode...but then you realize that you've already been numb like that.
  • you sense that people really DON'T care about your analysis of your "Marriage and Family Prep" class--why you didn't like it compared to the masses of people who "absolutely LOVED it..."
  • you finally come to terms with making an effort to look nice for the day, even though everyone in this ever-loving world should be okay with wearing sweats everyday.
  • you see that the dishes AREN'T going to do themselves...and neither are your roommates....
  • that your parents don't know EVERYTHING in the world anymore and because you're now an adult, you have to start making your own decisions based off what YOU know.  it sucks.
  • you don't have the money you need to buy a Christmas gift for everyone you want.
  • you learn that in marriage you choose who you love and marry.  It's not like some destiny thing.
  • you discover that maybe when people have nightmares, they don't always have to say a prayer like me to get back to sleep because it's just a dream.  I found that out at work today.
  • you are also reminded that people don't actually like hearing about your dreams.  Even if it was about a guy that sold his soul to the devil and had to kill 1000 people to make it worth it and your family was next on the hit-list.
  • you start rationalizing almost everything in your life...like me, for example, who just spent twenty minutes updating my blog in my robe instead of getting dressed because I'm writing for my masses of fans who have been deprived of my voice for 9 whole days.
  • you have an out-of-body experience with chocolate.  You look down and suddenly memories of the past five minutes come flooding back as if you didn't just live them--because in those five minutes you just inhaled a "slutty" brownie: a brownie that also has a layer of oreos AND cookie dough.
  • you think of all the ways you can drag out your limited groceries because you only have less than four days left...
 That's about all I want to write right now.  (Haha--write right.  good one.)

Saturday, December 1, 2012

The Week in Pics (Burn pictures included!!)

So I **KNOW** this is gross.  So you can just skip over this part, but I still wanted to include it for some reason.  Learn from my mistakes in treating burns. 

DON'T!
  • clean burns with hydrogen peroxide.
  • move on to clean burns with iodine.
  • cover your burns with band-aids.
  • put anti-itch cream on it.
  • put old expired Neosporin on it.
  • get sunburn aloe vera for it.
DO!!
  • put new Neosporin on it-preferably the white cream versus the clear ointment.
  •  *if you have to* cover it with something breathable, like gauze.
  • take the antibiotics if you are prescribed them.
  • get it taken care of right away and fill out your worker's comp RIGHT when it happens.
  • go to the BYU health clinic instead of the Emergency Room because you planned ahead of time.
Just enjoy the progression of it.
 

I cheated a little bit and drew the circle bigger.





Finally it's better!!  This was taken today.  That was a crazy experience.
Awesome light up cup from Wal-Greens.  I was tempted to get it.

If you look REALLY closely, you can see that there's a puppy right beyond the guy.  A puppy in this lady's purse.  Haha.

Mariah in mourning for the discontinued Twinkie display.

I saw these OBNOXIOUS flappy hats at Smith's...so I made Mariah try one on with me.  She looks so thrilled.  I was dying.

Fantastic looking cookies at Smith's.  "Maria, are you done with the cookies yet?"  "Uhhh, yeah, let me just finish the noses real fast.  Okay, done!!"

Sweet "Yoga Cats" calendar.  There aren't words to express how weird yet amusing this is.

Pretty bouquet...with a freaky nut-holder thingy in the middle.  I couldn't figure out what it was so I took a picture of it.

This is for Kristen if she reads this--I tried curling my hair again.

Utah is gorgeous.  I took this on the way to dropping off Emily at the Provo Airport.

I had a ton of time to myself this past Thanksgiving break, so I pampered myself one night.  Haha.  This is ridiculous.

Gabby, Megan and I went to YL.  Catering girls :)

Sweet bacteria agar. The left side is from right when I got home from school, and the right side is after I washed my hands, very thoroughly.

Sweet candy from other countries.  I tried them out with Alex--it was hilarious AND disgusting.

The "Longest Cougar Tail (a special BYU donut) in the WORLD."  It was kind of cool that I got to see it so early in the morning before people got there.  The news even came for this event.  You could donate a dollar to charity and have a piece.

It was actually just several put together.  I saw their little trick.

Someone's car in the parking lot.  Gotta represent the mother countries! ;) Brazil is behind Spain's flag.

The hot tub at King Henry's clubhouse was about to overflow...so I took a picture.

Random seats from a car outside the ESC on campus.  Weird.

These shoes I tried on in the BYU bookstore.  Normally I don't look around there (because I want to get EVERYTHING), but today I was looking...and these were only $22!  I got the black pair.


Break the Fast spreadsheet.  You can see where we started assigning people. ;)

I found this this morning on my table...and I don't know where it came from!  Hopefully from my crush! ;)  Thank you to whoever that was!  Does it look like boy handwriting??

And that's a wrap!  Have a great last week before finals!!  Only 12 more days before I'm going home, fools! :D  (I'm just kidding, you're not a fool.)

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Maybe it can be fun

Maybe...

waiting periods in your life can be fun because you grow SO much.

there's really magic in everyday.

you really CAN do whatever you want and be whoever you want to be.

dreams do come true.

the law of attraction is real.

things always do work out.

the hard times really do pass and life goes on.

your body and heart can and do heal.

And by "maybe," I mean "it's true that."  I'm so grateful to my Heavenly Father for my life and all of His blessings everyday.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

About Today

(This post is really about today, but it's also the title of one of my favorite songs by The National.)

Today must have been one of the most stressful days of my life.  I don't think I had ever been this prone to spontaneous crying before today...don't judge, but I cried more upon hearing this news than when my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer.

I had overdue tuition.

Oh my gosh.

Turns out, it was a miscommunication, and I DIDN'T, but oh heck.  I was freaking out all day.  Maybe you can relate, maybe you can't...but I was so stressed today that by the  time it resolved, I was too emotionally drained to be of much use for the majority of the evening.

The biggest thing for me in this experience though, was my mom's counsel to pray through the whole thing.  I was praying very hard, and the Lord answered my prayers.  He knew that it would all work out, and He was there for me through that.

Monday, November 26, 2012

My office is expanding!

As a blossoming and increasingly ever popular blog-author, my little blog world is expanding.  Yes, I am gracing you with...MORE BLOGS!!

I'm going to try and experiment and write a few other blogs in addition to this.  Ladyon7th.blogspot.com will be for my random thoughts, stories, pictures, whatever...

dietitianinthemaking.blogspot.com will be my blog for nutrition.  As I'm sure you're aware (or you might not be--it's not something I publicize all the time), I'm studying to become a dietitian.  It's my goal to write about applicable information on this blog from what I'm learning in my classes.  Tips, stories, interesting facts...

mymestitony.blogspot.com is going to be my blog geared towards sharing my testimony of Christ.  I'd like to point out what I did with the blog title--since "mytestimony" was already taken up in the blogging world, I changed the letters around to be "mymestitony."  See what I did there?  Yeah? Yeah? I'm already aware that it sounds more like an anatomical procedure rather than a clever play on words.

 So yeah.  Have a wonderful Monday, everyone!  haha.  wonderful. Monday.  good one.

Friday, November 23, 2012

The Week in Pics and More

So this is my nature edition.  **I know this sounds corny** BUT there are so many times when I'm just walking on campus or wherever and I look up and see how beautiful nature is.  It reminds me to really live and enjoy my life.  I'm so grateful for Heavenly Father's love for us and His love for us.

So here are the pics...I uploaded them to my Google+ account because this was the fastest way I could figure out how to upload a TON at the same time. 

The only problem is I can't figure out how to import them...here.  So here's the link if you're REALLY interested in my photography and nature-seeking skills.  I'd like you to also know that none of them are edited. 
 
 https://plus.google.com/photos/111382027617391521422/albums/5814087215071921697

In the spirit of Thanksgiving, I will write about a Thanksgiving experience I had as a girl.  I told my grandma this yesterday and thought it would be funny to share here.  Um, it's also kind of short and rather anti-climatic.

For some reason, my brother and I got a hold of the turkey bones after Thanksgiving dinner.  We thought it would be genius to play with them in the backyard.  So we did.  We had this swing-set that had a little trapeze and under the trapeze was this mini hole in the ground--obviously the PERFECT place to play with dead turkey bones.  Eventually, (it was probably a couple of days later) our mom discovered our new playthings...and put the kabosh on that.  We turned in our ant-ridden bones and never played with anything like that again.

Super random, I know.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!!

I just wanted to take a minute to write a little Thanksgiving post.

I am so grateful for (in no particular order)

  • the gospel in my life
  • Jesus Christ and His Atoning sacrifice for me
  • my family and all they do for me
    • my parents and their diligence in teaching our family
    • their example of faith
  • the scriptures
  • my ward
  • my health
  • my family's health
  • my friends and all they do for me
  • my car
  • the opportunity to receive an education at BYU
  • my laptop
  • my phone
  • electricity
  • running water (and heated)
  • my warm bed
  • food
  • clothes
  • my home
  • my job
  • my trials
  • the Lord and His always watching over me, for all of His tender merices
  • my sight and hearing
  • my violin and lessons
  • my parents and their sacrifices for me--especially in putting me through violin and piano lessons
**Not an all-inclusive list.**

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Random story of the day

One time, I had this semi-big crush on this guy.  There were some minor problems in the picture, though.

1) He was dating my roommate.

So maybe it was just one huge problem.

Anyways, we had a couple of classes together: Anatomy and New Testament.  It was perfect.  As soon as they stopped dating, he would realize that he actually fell in love with me and we'd live happily ever after together.  As we peered over the slimy cadavers, pointing out chordae tendinae--the actual heartstrings of the heart--to each other, or while we flipped through Matthew together, he would discover that I was an invaluable part of his life.

Until the second to last day of class.

A little bird told me he was starting to date someone else.  I was...upset.  I don't think I was having a very good day anyways, to my minimal credit.

That day in class I tried to casually bring it up to him.  As he confirmed it, I broke my pencil in half and threw it at the teacher.  He said yes, that he was dating someone.  He also remembered that he had some cake pans of ours that he still needed to return.  At this point I was kind of feisty and I told him that he could bring them over whenever...it seems that my memory's getting a little fuzzy with what snappy words I actually said...

That seemed to make an impression on him.  The next class (last class) he wasn't sitting where he normally did so we could sit by each other.  Front left side of the class.

Disappointed, I made my way to an empty seat and sat by myself.  How could he miss the last day? I thought.

Nope.  He didn't.  I found this out in the middle of class when his distinct voice rang out, commenting on a particular verse.  Turning around, I saw that he in fact was sitting in the middle of a row in the very back. 

He avoided me.

And got married to the chick in January.

Whatev, who cares, not me.  (I really don't, but I just wanted to share that story. :)

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Taylor Swift pulls through for me again

I love Taylor Swift so much.  I know some of her songs are cliche.  I also know I fit right into the crowd she's aiming at--from 12 year-old teeny bops dreaming of someone to "like" to 21 year-old honey-dips looking for someone to LIKE.  I feel like I relate to a lot of her songs--not so much all of the break-up ones, but there's at least a line in each song that I love.

Anyways, this is one that I particularly love from her new album: "All Too Well."  The red comments are my thoughts in between the lyrics.  I think of my old friend from high school when I hear this song.

I walked through the door with you
Air was cold, but something 'bout it felt like home somehow
and I
Left my scarf there at your sister's house
And you still got it in your drawer even now (I'm think he borrowed a CD of mine that he still has.  It always felt like home at his house, too.)

Oh your sweet disposition (I thought he was cute)
And my wide eyed gaze (I have big eyes ;)
We're singing in a car getting lost upstate (We sang in the car ALL THE TIME.)
The Autumn leaves falling down like pieces in their place
And I can picture it after all these days (Yes.)
And I know it's long gone, and that magic´s not here no more (It has been a long time, but I still think about our times together even now.)
And it might be okay, but I'm not fine at all (I'm more fine than Taylor's implying here, but I still miss him.)

Cause here we are again on that little town street (like 66)
You almost ran the red cause you were looking over me (once when he was looking over at me when we were driving, he drove up on the median)
Wind in my hair I was there I remember it all too well

Photo album on my counter
Your cheeks were turning red (His mom would always tell me stories about him)
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin size bed
And your mother's telling stories 'bout you on the t-ball team
You tell me about your past thinking your future was me (I don't think this part applies)

And I know it's long gone, and there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to

Cause here we are again in the middle of the night (We always stayed up late doing random stuff together *clean*)
We're dancing round the kitchen in the refrigerator light (We would dance to music in both of our kitchens while making food)
Down the stairs I was there I remember it all too well

And maybe we got lost in translation
Maybe I asked for too much (asking him to like me the same way)
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece
´til you tore it all up (this line and the next five lines don't really apply...?)
Running scared, I was there I remember it all too well

Hey you called me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumbled up piece of paper lying here
Cause I remember it all all all too well

Time won't fly it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I´d like to be my old self again (I wish I could find someone to be that close to again, hanging out and being myself)
But I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own (This doesn't really apply)
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can't get rid of it, cause you remember it all too well yeah

Cause there we are again when I loved you so (I probably could say he was my first love)
Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Wind in my hair you were there you remember it all
Down the stairs you were there you remember it all
It was rare, I was there I remember it all too well


Saturday, November 3, 2012

Everyone likes a little quirkiness, right?

And everyone IS quirky in some way, right?  For me...

  • The toilet paper for me MUST be hanging over.  None of this "I'm going to reach under to grab some TP" business.
  • I hate sitting in a warm seat that was JUST sat in.  It grosses me out.  It's okay if it's a car heating up the nice leather seat (so choice!) but if it's from someone who was in the class before me? ...ewww...
  • It bothers me when people say "literally" and "legitely."  First of all, it is hardly ever necessary for you to say "literally."  It is also doubly worse if you pronounce it "lit-TRAH-ly."  Second, "legitely" is NOT a word...!?
  • If there's one thing about me that I obsess over, it's my bangs.  
  • If I get the chance to go to Costco, I love getting the samples...and looking around for them.  I hit them up!!
  • If I get completely ready for bed, I like to fall asleep on my right side, always.  If I don't get ready and I fall asleep with the lamp on, I like to fall asleep on my stomach, always.
  • I don't like it when people suddenly go into an accent for no reason and for an extended period of time.  If it's just for a joke, then cool, I'll join you, but other than that--NO.  The Irish accents especially get me.
  • I say numbers weird and can't help it.  For example, instead of saying "One hundred and forty," I say "one forty." 
  • Sometimes I try to use big words--and I use them correctly because I know the meaning, mind you--but I oftentimes mispronounce them.  
  • When I start dating someone seriously, I'm probably going to be very awkward because I've made fun of so many PDA people in the past.
  • I am highly and painfully aware of the fact that I'm annoying to watch movies and reality TV shows with.  I make comments without even realizing it until they're halfway out of my mouth.  It's a problem.
  • I absolutely LOVE dressing up in costumes.
  • I like drawing and art, but I don't like doing crafts.  Scrap-booking and creating things is just not really my thing.
  • I'm anti-bringing-treats-over-to-boys'-apartments-in-hopes-of-getting-attention-for-a-future-date.  I did it the other night, but it was just really hard for me...
  • I'm an idiot-savant at the Etch-a-Sketch. 
  • I still believe in the Tooth Fairy (see earlier post).
  • I don't believe you can fall in love in three days, but I do believe you can experience a connection with someone when you first meet them.
  • When I crack up--I mean, really laugh hard--or try to tell a hilarious joke OR get excited, my voice gets higher.  I can't help it.
  • My ears turn bright red when I'm feeling either really excited, nervous, or upset. 
  •  I don't like chewing with earphones in. 
  • I don't like being called "cute" by people younger than me or told that by someone that "they're so proud of me."
  • Sometimes when I eat too much citrus at once, my nose sweats and sometimes my lips tingle.
  • One of my best friends quotes movies all the time...and now I do too.
  • It's probably a quirk that I even wrote this blog entry.
Maybe I've already said too much.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Y'all goin' make me lose mah mind

Up in hurr, up in hurr!  DMX, anyone?  *I'm only thinking of the beginning lines if you DO end up listening to the song, just to clarify*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gGtVRQHeR5Q

Anyways, I feel a little like I'm losing my mind.

Today I worked from 8-11, ended up working 20 minutes over because the cranberry sauce I was making took too long.  (It took too long because I forgot that to make a sauce you have to first prep the cornstarch, NOT add it directly.)  I then spent thee next 40 minutes rushing across campus, back home and back to campus by 12 because I realized I forgot my violin for my lessons.  Class from 12 to 2, rushed to warm-up a little bit, then lesson at 2:30.

Once I made it to the library, I picked out a computer to work at...but realized I left my phone somewhere.  Halfway down the stairs to the restroom where I might have left it, I remembered that I actually DID have it going up the stairs, but at a different computer...

This whole past week (and yesterday) has been like that.  I even told my boss this morning to "have a good weekend" as I was leaving.  NOT a good sign on a Tuesday.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Obsessed

I love Halloween.  If you're a faithful reader of el bloggio, maybe you were able to tell by the Halloween background...put up in the middle of September.

So one of my favorite parts about Halloween is dressing up.  I can't explain it (except I do give my mom credit for instilling this in me through all of the awesome costumes and traditions throughout my childhood.  So I guess I can explain it.)

Some of my favorite costumes from the past (that have won prizes, I might add ;)

Thursday night's dance party...Catwoman with 3 of my roommates

Audrey Hepburn joined us, too.

Dance part on Saturday night.  Alice, Spidey, Flight attendant, Kevin Costner and Waldo. 
Sarah Palin and McCain '09

Katie Bell (not for Halloween--a Harry Potter party, but still legit)

Imperial Guard for a Star Wars party.  I blogged about this when it happened, but I still loved it.
Witchy poo '11
*This isn't me.* It's a pumpkin I carved of a panda.  Just wanted to insert that I also love carving pumpkins.

From freshman year when we went to the 1st half of the 7th HP movie premier

Me and Emers when we went to the Howl (epic Halloween party) freshman year
 SO yeah.  I'm not sure if I've made it clear enough yet how much I love dressing up yet or not, but it's something I enjoy. :)

Thursday, October 25, 2012

What To Do If You Ever Like Someone

This blog is titled, "What To Do If You Ever Like Someone" because in it I will describe what to do if you ever like someone.

First and foremost, you must find someone to like.  This person could be anywhere--in one of your classes, in your ward, a hottie at the library, even in the mirror...

Think about him frequently.  Timing is everything (since it's all the time anyways).  You can think about him when you're walking to your car, making dinner, or even trying to do homework.  Most importantly, be sure to think about him right before you fall asleep, imagining that you are in fact in a relationship with them.  The best time to think about him is the inconvenient times when your brain is needed the most in other areas of your life.  For example, if your roommate is trying to tell you about her day and ensuing problems or you're trying to study for a test, think about him then.

When you think about him, conjure up the most ridiculously cute scenarios of the perfect date with him, your first kiss with him, his proposal, and the adorable children you'll eventually have together in your perfect home in California by the beach.  The thoughts of possibly being together will be intoxicating, and each daydream will get better.

Additionally, you must nonchalantly bring him up to your roommates in an effort to learn more information about him and discover his dating intentions.  This is the trickiest step.  If not done correctly, one will suspect your intent behind your questions and begin to either a) be careful in what she says or b) start teasing you or c) all of the above.

A critical step: stalk his Facebook page more than you do your own.  Memorize his pictures, the little information he displays in his profile and his Facebook activity.  Depending on the frequency of his picture uploads, this can provide a small comfort in regards to (*thinking*) knowing his current dating activities.

These first few steps establish your love for him.  Congratulations!  You officially like him.

Now for the potential of face-to-face contact instructions.

When you are in his presence, whether it be five feet or fifty-five feet away, steal several discreet glances in his direction, just to make sure he's still there.  This is also to check who he's currently talking to.  Be as casual as continually looking at him allows.  This is difficult.  Do NOT let anyone--especially his friends--see you.  If you by chance meet his eye, quickly divert your eyes, or continue looking in that direction "pretending" to look at something else around him.

If you get the blessed chance to actually talk to him, make the lamest comments you can think of to make him laugh.  Stare at him for longer than is socially acceptable, and grin widely as if you're five years-old on Christmas day.  Be sure to be slightly awkward so you can beat yourself up after your encounter with him.  Lastly, prematurely walk away before the conversation could be over.

After you have completed all of these steps, repeat indefinitely.  Mixing these steps is perfectly fine, as there is no true order.

Great!  That's it.  If you faithfully follow all of these outlined steps, you will stay as single as ever, just like me!

Friday, October 19, 2012

Sun-In Sucks

So a little story.  This is one my friends enjoy laughing at me for, so I figured I should write it down for posterity's sake.

This past summer, my friend Mariah and I had the brilliant idea to get Sun-In to lighten our hair.  (The truth: I had the idea, and I think Mariah went along with it since she already has blonde hair.  1) It didn't do anything to her hair and 2) she didn't really use it anyways.  So it was really just me who used it.)

I thought it would be so fun.  "Oh, look at us, we're so cute using Sun-In to lighten our hair because it will look natural AND I'm only spending 5 bucks versus 50!"

Not so.

I got a little "Sun-In" happy...and I used half the bottle by myself while laying out.  Eventually people started telling me that my hair did look lighter.  Thankfully they were nice enough to NOT tell me that it was starting to look on the brassy side.

So the one thing about Sun-In *that I didn't know* is that supposedly you can't color your hair after using it UNTIL IT GROWS OUT.














*Record scratch.* blink blink.










Say whaaaa???






I guess it will "make your hair break and goo...and even   m   e   l   t       o   f     f ...." according to my hair stylist uncle.

So.  I resolved to accept my brassiness for the next forever.  I would get used to the sound of my friends' laughter echoing in my ears, and I would become a better person for accepting myself as I am.

Until this past Monday when I couldn't take it anymore.  I researched it a little, and decided it was safe.  I took matters into my own hands and went for it.  Shout out to Kyleygirl for coloring it.

Gah it's so awful.  I can't believe I just posted this.

After!!  Darker brown with red undertones.
And that is the story I have written down forever and ever.

So this post is going to be kind of long-ish because I also want to write about my experience auditioning to be a Disney character cast member this morning.

First off, I got cut right off the bat, so don't be too excited reading this story.  The story of the audition actually isn't as important as the things I learned from it.  For this cause, I will not go into too much detail about the audition.

I got to Salt Lake (Sandy) around 9:40ish, got all signed up by 10:30 and started talking to a few people, just making friends.  We were taken into a big studio room and learned a quick 2 8-count parade-type march.  Then we were told that the animation portion would be acting like your favorite Disney character in a parade.  And that was it!  In the actual audition, we went through the animation and the parade dance twice. It was difficult because in your animation you have to do something different than everyone else to make the casting director notice you.  You have to be quick to think of something different--which was so hard.  What is there to do differently than just waving, blowing kisses, etc?  There were some people with noticeably higher levels of energy and brighter smiles, but I don't know how I could have done any differently or what they wanted.

Anyways, here are some things I learned from the experience that I want to remember:


  • It's hard to put myself out there, but through this audition and a recent fashion show audition (that I also didn't make as you recall), I'm learning to put myself out there.  I feel like in the future I'm going to  have more opportunities to put myself out there, and I'm liking the feeling of becoming more comfortable with that and independent of what others are doing.
  • It has motivated me to work harder at my life to become the best I can be at what I'm already good at.  I'm not going to settle for just passing by or any of this mediocre business.  I'm going to start today by studying harder in my classes and practicing more regularly.
  • I also was grateful that I've been working harder to lose some weight, and this experience motivated me to work harder to continue to get the body I want.  I'm not going to let myself be in the way of getting what I want.
  • Next time something like this comes around, I'm not going to obsess over it like I did with this audition.  I've never had anything consume my thoughts as much as this did, and I did NOT like that.
  • I think this is the biggest one that I learned through this and am still learning: that it's the Lord who's in charge of my life, not mine, thank goodness.  I'm so grateful that there's a plan already set for me that's the best for me, and all I have to do is figure it out (a lot easier said than done, of course).  If it were up to me, I would have made it and have been a Disney princess in Florida.  But what if it turned out that I would have actually hated the job because I barely got to be a princess and I was mostly only in a fur suit all the time in the heat of Florida, or I was stuck with awful roommates, or I missed out on meeting someone here?  I know the Lord knows this, and I believe everything happens for a reason, and I'm in the place I need to be right now for a reason.
  • I made myself talk to people and make friends, and although that can be hard, too, I promise myself here and now to be better at that--to just start talking to people wherever I am, disregarding my own insecurities, and to pay more attention to the person that's by themselves in need of a friend.  Today I invited someone to talk with the group I was sitting with, and I think that was a good thing.  She was sitting by herself.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

The Truth

Something that's been on my mind lately is..the truth.  (Sounds scandalous, right?  Now that I've caught your attention...)

Last year I had the opportunity to attend the evening classes at BYU's Education Week.  There was this one particular class that I particularly loved that I would particularly like to take again.  I can't remember the title of the class, but it was about not worrying/facing life/dealing with problems gracefully, etc.

On one of the class days we talked about what truth is and how it "will set you free."  Besides this scriptural reference (John 8:32), the Lord gives us an actual definition of truth in Doctrine and Covenants 93:24: "And atruth is bknowledge of things as they are, and as they were, and as they are to come."  

So the truth is knowing things as they are.  That means that you need to get rid of all of the "shoulds" in your life, like "I should be as thin as that girl who looks like she has virtually no thighs," or "I should have a boyfriend," or "I should be smarter" etc.  Look at the areas in your life that you're unhappy with right now.  If you think about it, those problems can probably point back to a "should" or "shouldn't".  Welp, that's just not the way things are.  Once you stop connecting the way things should be in your mind and the way things really are right now--the truth--then the truth will set you free.

Just a little nugget of wisdom that I need to remember the most right now.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

The Week in Pics and then some

KIMBRA!!  Concert with Megan :)
This quote makes me think--I think it's so key that it says who you *believe* you were meant to be.

Huge.

Gardner's Village with my grandma in SLC.  Just posin' here with the witch, it's cool.


Crazy "Alien Blood" from the candy store.  Just read the labels...


And "Blood"!?


Only look at the cloak, not the face I'm making (I wasn't ready.  Actually I was but failed at making a cute face.).  $200 cloak.  So sweet for a Little Red Riding Hood costume!

Cool truck, dude!

Yeah, girl.

This card makes me feel better. haha.

Holy fudge.

Sometimes Utah can be really gorgeous.

I couldn't resist.  I know, I'm a creeper.  They were escorting.

Awesome Andy Warhol quote.
A card I found at Smith's.  The man looks just like my Grandpa Winn, it's crazy.
I hate pictures in front of the mirror, but I love this dress. Shout out to Kyleygirl for making me get it.

Me and my girl Emers.
So.  I don't remember ever wanting anything as bad as becoming a Disney princess.  except for this morning when I really wanted to eat some fudge, and then I did.

I've done all of my homework for it, and hey, guess what!?  I'm auditioning this Friday!  It's not like me to skip class, but I'm taking the day off for this.  I've already asked off work for it, too.  I've already applied for the character performer/look-alike position, and I've gotten an email back for the second part of the web-interview that I need to complete tonight.  I've watched several YouTube videos of Disney characters, audition tip videos, googled images of Disney characters, read the website inside and out...

That would be SO COOL.  

Other updates:

...

Nothing.  I got nothing.  This week's goal will be trying to stop daydreams of Disney from overcrowding the brain space I need to function.