Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Do you ever feel like...'re living someone else's life?  That a TON of things in your life are changing, and SO fast, that you don't even recognize your life and it becomes surreal to you?

Yeah, me neither....uuhhh, wut?

No, but for real, lately I've been feeling like I've been going through the motions of all of these new changes, and then I think, "what am I doing?  I should be here doing this instead."  And then I try to snap back to reality, but it's a foreign one that I'm trying to get used to.

So, some explanation.  For this whole semester, I thought I was going home to Texas for the summer.  Then my boss asked that I stay for five weeks.  THEN I was going home.  But then nothing turned up for a summer job in Texas, so I looked here and got one right away.  Okay, I guess I'm supposed to stay...?  So I'm now staying (as of a week and a half ago) the summer, not knowing when I can take off enough work to go home to visit.

In the meantime, I started dating this boy again.  Cue major change in my life number two: now we've been OFFICIAL as of May 13--my first real relationship!

So.  Today was day two of the new job, and let me tell you, it's a NIGHT and DAY difference between this and my old job.  I don't want to elaborate too much on it but...let's just say it's been an adjustment from my office job to the kitchens in EVERY way.

In three weeks two of my best friends are leaving for the summer too.

I'm starting Weight Watchers.  Another HUGE change.

I just have to have faith that this IS the way my life is supposed to be going.  Ah, to have faith.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

I'm sick.

I would just like to publicly announce that I'm sick.  Achy back, headache.  No sore throat or stuffiness, just the aches.  This has sufficiently hindered my social life for the past two nights and tonight.  I have to get better by Monday so I can start my new job.

Thank you.  That is all.

Friday, May 25, 2012

The rest of the 30 Day Challenge

So I'm more than a little tired of this challenge, so I'm just going to finish it all up now, and the answers might be a little bit on the shorter side...

25.  If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?

This is a hard one.  I might be tempted to choose Alvin Smith, just to see if he really WAS the most handsome person in the world.  However, I would probably choose Nephi from the Book of Mormon.  I would want to get all of the advice I could from him, and would talk to him about what his life was like.  I would ask him about his moments of doubt and how he was able to press on.  We would eat at one of my favorite restaurants, The Cheesecake Factory.  I'm sure he would like it.

26.  What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?

I think that the world has the idea of love wrong.  It's not some huge spark, and it's not always rainbows and butterflies ALL the time.  It's not something you fall in, and it doesn't happen to you by chance.  It's something you decide--you're the one who decides whether you're going to love that person or not.  True, you can't help some of the things you're attracted to in a person, but you can be the one who decides whether you're going to love someone or pursue it.  Note: it also takes TIME for this to happen, another thing that's frequently looked over.  You can choose to love someone, but it will take time for it to happen.

27.  What is your favorite part of your body and why?

Probably either my eyes or my mouth, because I think they're pretty.  I like my eye color and shape, and I like how tiny my lips are.

28.  What is your love language?

I just took a quiz online to verify what I already thought, and I would say it's pretty accurate. 

5 Words of Affirmation
11 Quality Time
4 Receiving Gifts
10 Acts of Service
0 Physical Touch            

So I show love through time, service and words of affirmation, and that's also how I like to receive them the most.  I love gifts too, but not so much the physical touch.  I do love snuggling though.

29.  What do you think people misunderstand most about you?

I think everyone thinks, at least when they first meet me, that I'm quiet and not that funny--that I'm just a nice girl.  I don't think they realize that I can be funny, crazy, random, and even sarcastic.  It just takes some time for it to come out.

30.  List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.  (not all inclusive)

1.  being in tune with the Spirit, spiritual
2.  being talented, more specifically musically
3.  being a hard worker
4.  being smart
5.  being a great friend, always there for people
6.  being able to always make people feel good about themselves
7.  being a chill person, not worried about the outcome of situations (I know, I'm working towards that)
8.  being healthy
9.  being a great family person, very family-oriented
10. being able to handle anything that comes my way

That's about it!  That marks the end of the 30 Day Challenge.  :)  

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Day 24

24.  Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
So I'm the oldest of four kids.  Growing up it was just me and my brother until I was seven when my sister was born.  So even until I was I guess about 12 when Hannah was old enough to really play with (in my 12 year old mentality), it was me and my brother playing together.  Hannah and I fought a lot when we were younger, and my brother Nathan and I didn't fight as much.  We were all still tight.  Nathan and Hannah didn't get along as much as I did with the two of them.  Then Logan was born when I was 16, and I feel like things started to smooth a little more as we pulled together to watch Logan.

Now that I'm in college and am living in Utah, I don't have a very clear picture of the family's dynamic anymore.  The last time I was there was in December, and the time before that in May. :'( From what I gather, Nathan and Hannah do their own thing as teenagers and Logan runs the show as a terribly cute but demanding (as are all toddlers) four-year-old.  I love them all so much and miss them more than anything.

The four of us in December 2011

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Days 22 and 23

22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?

In 5 years, I see myself working on a Master's degree and married.  I don't know if I see myself with kids yet.  I will either be at the same college or a different one, depending on where my husband's job is, and whether I get into the Master's program here.  I most likely will still be living in Utah.

In 10 years, I will be a stay-at-home mother, starting to raise a family.  Maybe with 2 kids by then?  In probably another part of the country.  Let's say Texas. :)

In 15 years, I will still be a stay-at-home mother, but by that point, depending on how old my kids are, I might also be working part-time as a dietitian. 3 or 4 kids.

23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.

1.  Music--listening to and playing it.  I love it because it comforts me and fills in my life.  It completes me *drawing a heart in the air.*

2.  Reading--everything.  It's SO much fun and I love learning.  It's the best.  My favorite way to escape.

3.  Cooking--because it's fun.  I love creating and I love food (part of why I'm doing dietetics).

4.  Zumba--because it's also fun to me.  I love exercising, and I love dancing.  I also love Latino music and I feel sexaayyyy!! ;)

5.  Golf--because it's FUN.  (That's why I love all of these.)  I love being outside, smelling the mixture of grass and sweat (I know, it sounds weird.  I didn't say B.O.) and hitting the ball and just walking, enjoying nature.

Monday, May 21, 2012

Days 19, 20 and 21

Okay, so here's some make-up questions!

19.  If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?

Probably in California because the weather is perfect and there's the beach.  Duh.

To raise a family, probably not California because it's corrupt.  Probably Texas or Utah because those are the two places I've ever lived and I've enjoyed both places--and my family is in both places.

20.  Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.

I'm not sure what "significant" is defined as here...if it means "defining" or the first thing that pops in my head.  We'll go with the second definition.

1.  My TY beanie baby birthday party for my 8th birthday.  That was awesome--my mom went ALL out.  She throws the best parties EVER.  A ton of kids came, and there were a ton of different games that we played, and there were lots of gifts...

2.  My 5th birthday party--princess themed with a blow-up bounce house.  Also all out.  More gifts, a barbie cake, lots of 5 year-old spoilage goin' on...

3.  My awesome 16th birthday party.  It was a surprise birthday party, and they got me GOOD.  All of my friends were there, and we played games and ate food.  It was at the Firewheel Clubhouse.  I loved it.

21.  If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?

Right now for the kind of mood I'm in, I would choose to have the fastest metabolism in the world.  What would I do with it?  Eat all the Ben and Jerry's I could lay my hands on.  Talkin' full on pig out.

If I had to choose a noble superpower that could benefit others, I would be more in tune with others' feelings so I could ALWAYS say the right thing--always be there to say the thing that they need to hear the most.

Friday, May 18, 2012

Day 18

Okay, so this 30 Day Challenge is actually 30 days.  It's longer than I thought...!  Only Day 18 haha.

18. What has been the most difficult thing you've had to forgive? 

Probably either losing one of my best friendships or the other in high school.  I lost both, and it was hard.

This will most likely definitely be a shorter entry because who wants to elaborate on that?

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Day 17

17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?

This is hard.  I wish I was great at a lot of things.  Before I write them, I want to preface it by saying that I know that I can make these happen with either time, hard work or both.  More self discipline.

I wish I was phenomenal at the violin and piano--truly great.  I'm okay...but not exceptional.

The daily cheat: I also wish I was great at refusing sweets.  Like this morning, my grandma left out her chocolate covered strawberries (I think she might have forgotten to refrigerate them again or something...?) and I ate one.  Inhaled it even.  Really?  I didn't even think about it until it was gone...and then I started remembering "Oh yeah, that might be gross to eat that at 7 am, and oh yeah, they weren't refrigerated for twelve hours and they were actually five days old..." Uhhhh...

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Day 16

16. What are five of your greatest accomplishments?

1. I earned a couple of scholarships at the end of my senior year.
2. I made it into All-Region all three years that I auditioned.
3. I've made it to state with my quartet in high school twice.
4. I made it through this past semester with B's in three of the hardest classes I've ever taken at the same time AND a decent social life AND actively attended church AND worked AND slept.
5. I've made it through college so far--still alive :D

I'm feeling pretty good about this list today.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Day 15

15.  If you were an animal, what would you be and why?

Probably a cat.  Not because I'm some weird cat lady or anything, but I think I would be a cat for several reasons.

1. I love sunbathing.
2. I love sleeping.
3. I love cuddling.
4. I love doing all of the above at the same time.
5. I love soft things.
6. I'm not one to go way out of my way to please people.  Not necessarily the best trait, but I'm not overly enthusiastic or out-reaching.
 7.  Most importantly, I'm the cat's meow.  Haha.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Days 13 and 14

13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.

Okay, so I don't know if this means 5 "non-negative" weaknesses, you know, like things you're a sucker for--like chocolate or something--or if it means vices you have.  I just got this list from this other blogger that did it.  I guess I'll list both...


1.  Chocolate.  Actually any shape or form of sugar.  Except for cherry candy (something that should never have been invented).
2.  Strong masculine jawlines.  Mmmm.
3.  Really good cologne--Acqua by Di Gio, to be specific.  If you smell good, I might go crazy.
4.  Anything coconut.
5.  Shopping in Forever 21.

1.  Comparing myself to others
2.  Jealousy (see above).
3.  Worrying too much
4.  Caring too much what others think
5.  Not reaching out as much beyond my set group of friends

14. Describe 5 strengths you have.

1.  Working hard
2.  Listening to others/showing genuine interest in others
3.  Being patient
4.  Journalling regularly
5.  Being able to connect with lots of different types of people on some level.

Any questions? 

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Days 9-12 (my bad!)

Here we go!!  Looks like I've missed a couple of days...

9.  List 10 people who have influenced your life and describe how.

**These are not in a certain order and they are not by any means all inclusive.** **Also, I'm only briefly writing about how they've influenced me.  I don't think I could adequately include everything.**

1.  My mom--she taught me how to be strong and keep moving forward in life.  She is such a huge example to me, and she's taught me how to listen to other people and be sensitive to their needs.
2.  My dad--he taught me how to live and love life--to learn to laugh through the tears, and he always gives me great advice on the things that matter most.
3.  Sean, my coworker--He gives the best advice and is always in tune with my feelings--whenever I'm upset, he can tell, and he listens and gives me advice.  I think someday I'll write a book entitled "Sean's Wisdom."  He's also showed me some rockin' music.
4.  My aunt Gayleen--she gives great advice and has provided the weekly home environment that I've needed throughout my college career so far
5.  Aurielle--she taught me how to be a better friend and how to march to the beat of your own drum without caring what others think.  She also taught me about style.
6.  Caleb--he's also taught me how to be a better friend and how to laugh and enjoy life more fully/
7.  Megan, Emily, Alex, Kristen, Kyley (all in one because they were my old apartment this past year)--has taught me how to be yourself, more about fashion
8.  Mrs. Tisdale--taught me how to fully appreciate literature, further deepened my passion for reading and literature
9.  My grandparents--have opened their home to me and have always been there for me.
10.  The boy I'm currently dating, Jared--has made me feel special and excited to be here

10. Describe your most embarrassing moment.

Picture this.  Three giggling girls on a sleepover in middle school.  They say anything and everything--and are hil-freakin-arious.  One especially thinks the other two are soooo funny...and she pees her pants on the chair.  Not knowing what to do, she tells the other girl, so at least it doesn't stain or something...The other girl expresses gratitude, saying that her cousin did the same thing but DIDN'T say anything, so thanks for letting her know.  First girl: wants to die.

11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.

1. People who CAN'T do an accent and they try to.  And they do it frequently.
2. I absolutely can't stand sitting in a seat that's already warmed by someone else.  It grosses me out.
3. When people get freaky about sharing clothes, or wearing someone else's jacket
4. When people get freaky about sharing food or a sip of a drink
5. When people don't wash their hands.  I don't think anything drives me crazier.
6. When people always try to "one-up" each other
7. When people play mind games--about anything/when they're manipulative
8. When people try to race me on the street
9. When people can't make eye contact with me
10. When people mumble but still talk ALL THE TIME

12.Describe a typical day in your current life.

Right now my typical day is waking up at 6:50, getting ready for work in 20 minutes, leaving for work at 7:15, make it to work and clock in by 7:35, work until 3:30 or 4, come home and CHILL OUT. For like, the rest of the night.  Some nightly activities in the past three weeks have included going to the gym, reading, going on a date, hanging out with friends and playing banana grams, journalling or blogging, listening to music while laying down...It's been pretty awesome.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Day 8

What are 5 passions you have?

1. Music--I think I've already listed this a LOT so I won't elaborate too much on it.
2. Yogurtland--I think I go once a week.  And I've had it for meals. 
3. Reading--love. 
4. Journalling/blogging--love.
5. Cooking/baking--food.  Love.

Yep.  Any questions? :)

As for the daily cheat, I want to list another one: Spanish.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Day 6 (and 7)

So since I missed yesterday, here's two days! :)

Day 6: What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?

Personally, it was losing one of my best friendships in high school.  This was probably the most difficult because 1) it was so hard and 2) its pains probably lasted the longest.  Not personally--with my family, I mean--it was going through the trial of my mom having cancer.  That was really scary.

I feel like I'm a better person for having gone through these things though.  I'm not sure what else to elaborate on.

Day 7: What is your dream job, and why?

My dream job would be playing in a Broadway pit orchestra nightly, at least for a little bit.  My violin professor said it's actually not all that it's cracked up to be, but I'd still like to know what it's like.  Second dream job: to play in a chamber quartet.  Third: to be an editor for the Oxygen magazine.

My first two dream jobs (I guess I cheated a little bit by listing more...) came from playing the violin since fourth grade.  I miss playing in orchestras, and this has just always been my dream.  My third one came from changing my major from music to dietetics, and I think it's a little more reachable.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Day 5

What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?

Aw man, this is hard because I feel like everything makes me happy.  (most everything.)

So here goes in no particular order.

1.  Dating :))
2.  My best friends
3.  Music--playing it, listening to it, discovering new music...
4.  My awesome job
5.  Working out at the gym

Life is so good.  Happy summer, everyone!!

P.S. My family does, too, but that's a given. :)

Friday, May 4, 2012

Day 4

List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.

This is a good one--and a difficult one.  Here goes.

1.  I would tell myself that the boy I liked didn't like me the way I thought he did, so just relax and enjoy the friendship for what it was.  I would tell myself to not let this new knowledge affect our friendship though.

2.  Don't worry so much and over-think things--to take things at face-value and live a little.

3.  I would help myself learn how to love and accept myself and not doubt myself, pointing out all the good I see in myself.  This in turn would teach myself to not get so emotionally involved in drama.

 4.  I would encourage myself to spend more time with my family and really work on developing my relationships with my brother and sister.  I would tell myself to be better about being conversational with my dad in the car in the mornings.

5.  I would tell myself the secret of spending time in the library to get things done.  I would tell myself to push myself just a little harder and that it will pay off.

6.  I would teach myself how to incorporate more exercise and portion-control into my life to start the habits at an even younger age.  Along these lines I would warn myself that I sometimes I handle stress by overeating--so be aware of that.

7.  I would tell myself to be more friendly and make more efforts to make everyone around me feel like my friend.  I would tell myself to outreach to my girlfriends more.

8.  I would tell myself to be more invested in my scripture study and to continue journaling frequently.

9.  I would lift myself up, letting myself know that it would all be okay and that everything works out.  I might consider letting myself know of better times ahead, but I wouldn't want to let myself start just longing for the future.  So I would teach myself to look for all the good in my life daily and to not worry so much about friend issues, or driving, or dating.

10.  I would STRONGLY encourage myself to save ALL my money.  Or at least most of it.

If I could tell myself one more thing (if I were to cheat by adding more) I would also tell myself about some SWEET music so I could be ahead of my time and in the know--you know, build up my music cred.

I would probably be tempted to tell myself about the future--that in a year, my mom would get breast cancer and all of the other things our family dealt with and that it would be okay.  I don't think I would, though--I would probably be a wreck still.  It's true that it's best to not know.

Me at age 16, January 2008

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Day 3

Describe your relationship with your parents.

In one word, AWESOME.

With my mom: best friends.  I tell her everything.  She totally cracks me up, and is one of my number one fans (besides my dad).  I support her and she supports me.  She takes care of me, even from 1000 miles away.  She sets an incredible example for me of strength, courage, charity, and perseverance.  I ask for advice on pretty much everything.
Me and my mom summer 2011 (I'm photobombing in the background..)

This is from senior year, I think (2010)

From 2009 Family reunion
Throwing gangster signs Winter 2011 when we caught a mouse


Spring 2010

With my dad: best friends too.  I love getting advice from my dad, and we crack up about everything too.  I love hanging out with him, and we just talk about anything and everything.  He is the rock of my family, and I know that if I do anything in this life, I need to marry someone like him.  He always encourages me in everything I do. 

Spring 2010
Halloween 2008
Taken in Galveston in 2007 I think
Summer 2011
Us at Wal-Mart, trying out his new phone
Summer 2011 at Disneyland

I haven't ever described one of my relationships before, so I hope this covers everything and gives you a little insight into how great they are. :)

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Day 2!

Day 2 of the 30 Day Challenge: Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

Well, this question is rather difficult since I'm a pretty fearless person.  Haha.

1.  The first one I can think of is accidentally leaving my flat iron on and then it catching fire, bringing the whole house down in flames and destroying my violin and journals and pictures.  This came to be a fear through realizing the immeasurable value of these things to me over time.  Also, I've forgotten to turn off the flat iron in the past, and this gets me thinking about how it's most likely next to my aerosol hairspray, which is flammable...oh my gosh, what if that sparks...then it will light the equally flammable cotton balls right next to it, and the towel...It's a legitimate fear.

2.  I also have a fear of getting old.  I know, no one can stop the hands of time and it's a shallow fear but...I don't want to have wrinkles, or gray hair, or creaky bones that can't do the things I want to, or deal with whatever else comes with getting old.  I just want to stay twenty forever, okay? Thanks.  I think this fear came from just seeing the effects of age on people, especially my great-grandparents.  Also, I used to baby-sit this man with Alzheimer's, and it made me so sad that he couldn't remember things from one moment to the next.  That's so hard to deal with, for both the person and his/her surrounding family.

3.  I think one of the biggest fears I have is not being in tune with God's will for me and totally messing up something that I could have avoided...I guess this comes from having experiences that DID work out because of one little thing that I did or thought of, and then going back and realizing that if I wasn't in tune, I could have missed out on something by THAT MUCH.  Thank goodness everything has all worked out so far.  I know that this also probably comes from a lack of faith, and that I just need to put more trust in the Lord that everything will work out.     

I've thought about whether something like cancer or losing a job is a fear for me, but since my family has experienced both, I'm not sure if they're AS big of fears anymore.  I fear getting cancer, but then I remember that everything is in the Lord's hands.  (I already know this last sentence contradicts what I said in fear number three.)

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

The 30 Day Challenge

Alright here it goes.  The 30 Day Get-to-Know-You Challenge.  Ready?

Day One: List 20 random facts about yourself.

1.  I'm somewhat of a boss at the Etch-a-Sketch.
2.  I'm 95.39% sure that I have a slight allergy to high amounts of citrus lips get tingly and I start to sweat...?
3.  I love krunk dance parties.
4.  I'm neither a day nor a night person--if I stay up too late, I get crazy and/or grumpy but if I wake up too early, I'm not ready to talk to you quite yet...
5.  My favorite position to sleep in is on my right side.  I'm pretty sure I wake up in the same position.
6.  I love cuddling. 
7.  One of my dreams is to do a Disney internship as a Disney Princess (Belle).
8.  I'm passionate about music--I love discovering new music, I listen to it all the time, always have a song in my head...
9.  I love playing the violin and piano.
10.  One of my favorite parts about summer is driving with the windows down at night. 
11.  Playing golf is THE BEST (but not watching it).
12.  Although my current hair color is my natural color, I LOVE coloring my hair.
13.  I'm not a very picky eater...except I don't like watermelon at all.  I've tried.
14.  For my birthdays growing up I would always request an apple pie instead of a cake.
15.  One of my goals in life is to become fluent in Spanish. 
16.  If it were possible to marry inanimate objects, I would probably marry the Harry Potter series.
17.  Napoleon Dynamite is one of my favorite movies.
18.  I can make AWESOME homemade bread.
19.  The beach is one of my favorite places in this entire world.  That and the library.
20.  I believe that chocolate milk was divinely inspired.

Stay tuned for more to come :)