Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Just a regular journal entry

Okay, so this is just going to be a normal journal entry--what's on my heart, fools.  It's a great de-stressor (<--is this a word??) for me.

It's finals week.  It sucks.  I still have three more finals to take, which I'm pretty sure will all happen tomorrow.  Yay.  Everyone's been publicizing about that on their Facebook status, but I'm choosing the blogging world medium for people that might care.  It's okay if you don't.  I barely do.  (Just kidding.)

I'm learning a lot about faith right now.  Right now I'm especially grateful for my mom who always listens to me.  It must be really hard for her--having a 4 year-old with 4 year-old issues, a 14 year-old dealing with dramatic friend issues, a 17 year-old boy who needs his butt kicked into gear (and college) and then me, the should-be-independent 21 year-old needy child calling constantly from 1000 miles away, probably sucking more time and emotional energy than the three younger kids combined.

On faith: you need to make (and take) your decision and *move on.*  Don't look back and be the pillar-of-salt woman.  Live in the present--not dwelling on the past or getting stuck in your plans for the future.  Be engaged in your life right now.  This is what you have--your friends, your job, your classes.  Here and now.  This particularly applies to me right now in moving on from my ex, pressing forward with my decision to stay in school right now and not go on a mission, and continue to work towards applying to the Dietetics program.  It's better to walk in the dark with God than in the light alone.  

Today I studied for a long time.  I need to study longer.

I have to pack up my room this week because I'm switching rooms.  

I need to pray harder.  And eat healthier.  

There's a potential for me to go on a date when I get back home, but I don't think I'm going to go.

So yeah.

Monday, December 10, 2012

That moment when...

So this entry is going to be the first of a series, kind of like my "Week in Pics."  It's going to be called "That moment when..." and it's going to illustrate highlights of the week in my life and special insights into my mind.

Okay.  *Ahem.*  That moment whennnnn....
  • you realize that despite your efforts this semester, you are pretty much still the same weight as the past three years.  Hooray for consistency, right??
  • you refrain from flirting with your coworker because it would threaten the loyalty you have to your imaginary boyfriend.
  • you finally take a shower and realize it's been longer than is socially acceptable since you've last showered.
  • that you actually CAN in fact flirt and nothing is inherently wrong with you.  The only problem is the people you can manage to flirt with are lots of boys...other than your crush...
  • you realize that you need to tone down your sarcasm because people don't know you and that you're actually being hilarious.
  • you get a haircut and let yourself believe in your hair again.
  • you wonder how you made it to the end of the semester and you start reflecting on what you've learned (oooh, that sounds like future blog entry material!!)
  • you realize that tonight is probably the last time in a REALLY long time that you'll go to Yogurtland with one of your best friends.
  • you see that you have so much to do that you enter into "numb" mode...but then you realize that you've already been numb like that.
  • you sense that people really DON'T care about your analysis of your "Marriage and Family Prep" class--why you didn't like it compared to the masses of people who "absolutely LOVED it..."
  • you finally come to terms with making an effort to look nice for the day, even though everyone in this ever-loving world should be okay with wearing sweats everyday.
  • you see that the dishes AREN'T going to do themselves...and neither are your roommates....
  • that your parents don't know EVERYTHING in the world anymore and because you're now an adult, you have to start making your own decisions based off what YOU know.  it sucks.
  • you don't have the money you need to buy a Christmas gift for everyone you want.
  • you learn that in marriage you choose who you love and marry.  It's not like some destiny thing.
  • you discover that maybe when people have nightmares, they don't always have to say a prayer like me to get back to sleep because it's just a dream.  I found that out at work today.
  • you are also reminded that people don't actually like hearing about your dreams.  Even if it was about a guy that sold his soul to the devil and had to kill 1000 people to make it worth it and your family was next on the hit-list.
  • you start rationalizing almost everything in your life...like me, for example, who just spent twenty minutes updating my blog in my robe instead of getting dressed because I'm writing for my masses of fans who have been deprived of my voice for 9 whole days.
  • you have an out-of-body experience with chocolate.  You look down and suddenly memories of the past five minutes come flooding back as if you didn't just live them--because in those five minutes you just inhaled a "slutty" brownie: a brownie that also has a layer of oreos AND cookie dough.
  • you think of all the ways you can drag out your limited groceries because you only have less than four days left...
 That's about all I want to write right now.  (Haha--write right.  good one.)

Saturday, December 1, 2012

The Week in Pics (Burn pictures included!!)

So I **KNOW** this is gross.  So you can just skip over this part, but I still wanted to include it for some reason.  Learn from my mistakes in treating burns. 

  • clean burns with hydrogen peroxide.
  • move on to clean burns with iodine.
  • cover your burns with band-aids.
  • put anti-itch cream on it.
  • put old expired Neosporin on it.
  • get sunburn aloe vera for it.
  • put new Neosporin on it-preferably the white cream versus the clear ointment.
  •  *if you have to* cover it with something breathable, like gauze.
  • take the antibiotics if you are prescribed them.
  • get it taken care of right away and fill out your worker's comp RIGHT when it happens.
  • go to the BYU health clinic instead of the Emergency Room because you planned ahead of time.
Just enjoy the progression of it.

I cheated a little bit and drew the circle bigger.

Finally it's better!!  This was taken today.  That was a crazy experience.
Awesome light up cup from Wal-Greens.  I was tempted to get it.

If you look REALLY closely, you can see that there's a puppy right beyond the guy.  A puppy in this lady's purse.  Haha.

Mariah in mourning for the discontinued Twinkie display.

I saw these OBNOXIOUS flappy hats at Smith's...so I made Mariah try one on with me.  She looks so thrilled.  I was dying.

Fantastic looking cookies at Smith's.  "Maria, are you done with the cookies yet?"  "Uhhh, yeah, let me just finish the noses real fast.  Okay, done!!"

Sweet "Yoga Cats" calendar.  There aren't words to express how weird yet amusing this is.

Pretty bouquet...with a freaky nut-holder thingy in the middle.  I couldn't figure out what it was so I took a picture of it.

This is for Kristen if she reads this--I tried curling my hair again.

Utah is gorgeous.  I took this on the way to dropping off Emily at the Provo Airport.

I had a ton of time to myself this past Thanksgiving break, so I pampered myself one night.  Haha.  This is ridiculous.

Gabby, Megan and I went to YL.  Catering girls :)

Sweet bacteria agar. The left side is from right when I got home from school, and the right side is after I washed my hands, very thoroughly.

Sweet candy from other countries.  I tried them out with Alex--it was hilarious AND disgusting.

The "Longest Cougar Tail (a special BYU donut) in the WORLD."  It was kind of cool that I got to see it so early in the morning before people got there.  The news even came for this event.  You could donate a dollar to charity and have a piece.

It was actually just several put together.  I saw their little trick.

Someone's car in the parking lot.  Gotta represent the mother countries! ;) Brazil is behind Spain's flag.

The hot tub at King Henry's clubhouse was about to overflow...so I took a picture.

Random seats from a car outside the ESC on campus.  Weird.

These shoes I tried on in the BYU bookstore.  Normally I don't look around there (because I want to get EVERYTHING), but today I was looking...and these were only $22!  I got the black pair.

Break the Fast spreadsheet.  You can see where we started assigning people. ;)

I found this this morning on my table...and I don't know where it came from!  Hopefully from my crush! ;)  Thank you to whoever that was!  Does it look like boy handwriting??

And that's a wrap!  Have a great last week before finals!!  Only 12 more days before I'm going home, fools! :D  (I'm just kidding, you're not a fool.)