Monday, April 22, 2013

A Post in Pics, Russian Roulette style

So for a quick entry I thought it would be fun to randomly pick 10 pictures from my computer.  The rules: 1) I MUST use all of the ones I pick and 2) I can only pick the ones with numbers so I had no idea what they were.

 This is a picture of me and my best friend, Caleb, from high school.  This was taken at the end of senior year in my downstairs bathroom.  Caleb's glasses are fake--we were goofing off with one of those 3-D movie theater frames.  I love this one of us.  We were just hanging out together that day.  We always had so much fun together.

This is a picture Elder Peterson sent out in his forwarded emails.  He's the one on the right.  He was (is) one
of my good friends from freshman year.

Me and my girl Emers.  I miss her so much.  This is one of my favorite pictures of us.  We were doing the "booty tooch" during one of our roommate photo shoots.

Also a picture from the roommate photo shoot.  I also like this one.

Okay, this one is kind of embarrassing. I took this on one of the last days of my Spanish classes.  I don't know why 1) I took this, because I didn't even know this kid that well, 2) I still have this on my computer.  His name is Shaji.

I look like I'm half awake.  I probably was.  Logan is probably about two in this picture.  He's my little bud.

Uhhh...a selfie when I was talking to someone on the phone.  I don't remember who.  This was taken at the end of senior year when I was still living at home.  I've since given that red blazer away.

Me and Caleb during an orchestra field trip.  Those were fun times.  I was a little crazy about that kid.

A picture of Bailey and Hanan at our orchestra trip to Winter Park.  A free pose.  It's artsy, okay?

A shot of all of my ward last summer when we had a Harry Potter party.  I think I might have included this in a previous post a while ago.  That was a fun day.  Everyone watched one of the Harry Potter movies afterwards, but all I wanted to do was dress up, show up and off, and then leave.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Be the Song

By Foy Vance.  One of my new favorite songs for a couple of reasons.

1) It's so chill and soothing.  I LOVE indie/alternative music.  I also REALLY love movie soundtracks.

2) It's from one of my new favorite movies, "Warm Bodies."

In the scene with this song, R, a zombie, gets glimpses of a human's memories.  Anyways, both happy and sad memories of his child-and adulthood flash across the scene while this song plays.  Some of the memories include being bullied, watching fireworks with his dad, catching a smile from his girlfriend in class, telling her that he loves her for the first time and spending time looking at the clouds with her.

I feel like this scene paired with the song evokes a lot of emotion.  (I know, I know, I'm analyzing a scene from a zombie love movie.)  It makes you feel wonder at the life's small joys, like riding a bike or spending time with someone you love.  It also makes you taste the bitter-sweetness of lows in life and moments taken for granted.

That's the thing about music.  It can make you feel SO much in just 3-6 minutes.  I feel like every song I hear--don't laugh--becomes my friend.  When I hear it, it brings back all of the memories in that time of my life.


Thursday, April 18, 2013

My version of H***

So, today at work the song "Tearin' Up My Heart" by N Sync was playing.

I used to like that song, but I don't think I do anymore.  I actually don't know anyone who likes any song after it's been played for the billionth time.

I think there are different versions of hell for everyone.  For me, for example, there are several.  One would be a never-ending homework assignment for organic chemistry, the class created in hell itself.  Another would be hearing the line "And no matter what I do, I feel the pain, with or without you" from "Tearin' Up My Heart" over and over while having to talk to my crush for an indefinite amount of time.   Especially after yesterday.

Yesterday I asked him point blank if he's ever liked me--ever in the time that he's known me.  Normally I don't have that kind of gumption, but yesterday the question was going OVER and OVER in my mind and I knew it wouldn't leave until I asked him.

So I did.

He laughed and told me "just as friends," and then reciprocated the question.  All I could do was sit there silently, screaming "shoot, this scenario went a lot better in my head," "what the heck was I expecting him to say!?" and "YES, ever since I met you!!" all at the same time in my head.  After a minute of no response from me, he told me "that's fine, you don't have to answer."  Good, because 1) I wasn't going to and 2) I'm pretty sure that last minute of silence spoke volumes.

And that would currently be my version of you-know-where, even over this finals week.

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Insert creative title here.

Gah.  I can't come up with creative titles all the time, okay?

I wanted to write a little shout out to my faithful readers.  I don't know who you are, but thanks for reading!  It makes me want to continue writing.  A special recognition goes to my peeps in Plano, TX; Mountain View, CA; Hanover, Niedersachsen, Germany; College Station, TX; Mesquite, Nevada; and my peeps right here in Provo.


There are some things that I can't take seriously.  1) a guy who wears a fedora, 2) guys who wear sunglasses in their shirt, 3) guys who wear chains and 4) guys who pop their collar.

So I was just looking through some of my old pictures on my SD cards and I got to thinking about those times.  (I guess I've been feeling a little nostalgic lately.)  I wondered if I would go back and tell my old self anything, and I think if I did, it would go as such:

  • Journal more and take more pictures!!  They're so great to look back on and learn from!
  • STOP stressing about your weight and image so much!!  You look a lot better than you think you do.  And it's only going to get harder from here, so just enjoy it.
  • That being said, still watch your calories.  Don't go crazy on the junk food. And exercise more.
  • Stop worrying so much about the future.  It all works out, usually...  You've made it thus far, and look, you only have a few twitches left and the therapy sessions are almost over!
  • That one kid who likes your best friend?  Don't think twice about him.  He doesn't and won't like you.  This will save you some grief.
  • Grow out your hair.  You're going to like it a lot more than the A-line cut.  As cute as it'll like longer hair better.  Don't try to grow out your bangs, you look better with bangs.  And don't part it so deeply.
I think that was about it.  My thoughts didn't get much deeper than that.

I changed my blog background to the beach.  It's an overcast day, but that's okay.  It reminds me of when my friends and I took a road trip to San Diego.  It was an overcast day then too, and I felt like I could spend FOREVER on the beach.  Everyone else was ready to peace out, but I just wanted to sit there and watch the ocean.  I LOVE the beach and am slightly obsessed with California.  I MUST move there when I get older. The background is from, which I personally think has the cutest blog backgrounds.  I could use almost any one of them and be happy.  

I also wanted to comment on another one of my favorite Rascal Flatts songs.  It goes along with my last blog post about everything happening for a reason, etc.  The song is called "Here."  I feel like they have a lot of inspiring songs for me.  I italicized my favorite line.

"And if that's the road God made me take To be with you
Then I wouldn’t change a thing, I’d walk right back through the rain 

Back to every broken heart On the day that it was breakin'
And I’d relive all the years And be thankful for the tears I've cried with every stumble, step  

That led to you and got me here, right here"

Someday, when I have a boyfriend (or lots of cats), don't let me write huge long posts about him.  K, thanks.  Or maybe I will, who knows.  Maybe it's just hard to read as a single person?  No, I think it can get old.  Anyways...

Is that about all the randomness you can take in one post?  It is for me.

Thursday, April 11, 2013

In this moment

In this moment I'm sitting here in the JSB on campus, trying to study for my food science quiz that I have to take in about 45 minutes.

Jack Johnson's "Better Together" song came on my iPod and it took me back down memory lane...

I distinctly remember talking to my best friend from high school, Caleb, in his awesome white Camero driving down Rowlett Road about this song.  Maybe (chances are most likely) my memory has since blurred, but this is how I remember it.

I remember telling him how much I loved this song and Jack Johnson in general.  He didn't like him.  Or the song.  At all.  I changed the song.

I think it's interesting that this song now reminds me of my boyfriend from last year.  He could sing while he played the guitar (such a *hot* plus in a guy), and he was especially good at Jack Johnson songs.  He sang this song for me once.

Isn't it funny how things change in a year?  Around this time last year we had "broken up" for like, three weeks, and then got back together.  It's a weird feeling remembering what I was doing at this time last year, trying to figure out if I was going to date this guy.  Now here I am, more single than I've ever been in my life and preparing for a mission.

I think it's also funny that the next song (no lie) on my iPod that came on after this is "The Day Before You" by one of my favorite bands, Rascal Flatts.  My favorite lines from this song are:

"Oh, but Heaven knows those years without you
Were shaping my heart for the that day I found you
If you're the reason for all that I've been through
Then I'm thankful for the day before you"

I think this is true.  I have to trust that everything that has led me to right here and right now is for a reason.  My job, failed dates, hard semesters, rejection from the dietetics program...all of it and more is for a reason that someday I'm praying I'll be able to figure out.

And maybe the only reason is to learn how to trust in the Lord more fully.  That would be okay with me.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

The Long-awaited Week in Pics!!

I'm not sure if I've ever commented on where exactly I got the "Week In Pics" title.  It's kind of a knock-off of MSN's "Week in Pictures" of professional photojournalism photos from around the world each week.  They're pretty cool.

So here are some (I'm not sure if I will have enough time for all of the ones I want to do!).  Ready?  Let's go!

First of all, can I put in a little random insert?  I just saw the movie "Warm Bodies" last night, and I really really liked it.  I want to get it and I loved the soundtrack.  So good.

Okay now let's start. Some notes: 1) there are some selfies in here.  But it's my blog and I can cry (or insert whatever pictures I like) if I want to.  2) they're definitely not in chronological order and DEFINITELY not all from this past week.  You should know by now that the title "Week in Pics" only refers to an entire post dedicated to pictures and subtitles.  3) I took all of these with my phone (as I do with pretty much all of my pictures).

Me and Emers on our last night together in Provo

Us doing the "K Cos" pose (our friend  Kevin Costner did this once in his profile picture, and I don't think he's aware that he's created a photo legend...)

Me and my mama at my great granddad's funeral

Logan in the background of us taking a snapchat shot

This picture is just ridiculous.  BUT I got K Cos to pose!!  A true blogging gem.

Me, Kyleygirl and Mariah at the Atlas Genius and Imagine Dragons concert two weeks ago.  So good.  

Me and this ridiculous Angry Birds helmet at Wal-mart.  I think Megan took this picture.  I can't remember.

I can't remember if I've already included this in a blog post, but it makes me smile on the inside when I look at it.  Do you get it?  Like Christopher Reeves/Superman??  Somebody taped it to the library door...

My new Easter heels that I've fallen in love with.  Please excuse my ashy calves.

Me and Ryan Gosling, no, Joey Fatone my uncle on Valentine's Day

I love these hipster boots, but I didn't want to dress up enough to make them worth it wanted to save my money.

Whoa, dude, whoa.

Oh yeah, working this hat like a boss.  This look on my face is my dad's classic pose, which is funny that I nailed it.

With Emily in an art exhibit we snuck  into.  It was closed with the lights off, but we wanted to see it, dangit.

Me, Emily and Alex on the night of Emily's fareweell party


I colored my hair this month with my  roommate.  Before picture.  (After can be seen in the Imagine Dragons picture.  It's faded even more since then.)

Freaky freaky nail thingy at the Wal-Mart nail salon.  This is not okay.

Gorgeous little ranch in Colorado where Emily's family took family pictures.  Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I flew out there last weekend from Thursday to Sunday night for Emily's mission farewell.

Another picture from the Imagine Dragons concert.  (Ideally they'd be next to each other, but whatever.)

Made an apple pie on Wednesday with K Cos.  Making a homemade pie was on my  25 year old bucket list, so I was able to cross that off!  (Maybe I'll blog about the bucket list sometime!)

Megan and I skiied on Saturday and got some pictures  with the ski guys.  We asked if they would take a picture of us, and they said only if they could be in it.  The guy taking the picture kept on clicking the camera, so we got several, but here are the highlights.  They were all hilarious.

I have got to figure out how to get this hairstyle.  I think it's so pretty.

This is a shirt that I really liked in Plato's Closet...but I didn't get it.  If I get a picture, it's almost like it's mine, right?

Me and Logan from last August.  I just wanted to include this in there.   Random.

Me and my roommate Maille coloring our hair.  Don't judge the booty shorts.  I only sleep  (and color my hair) in them.

Me and Mariah when we hung out on President's Day

From the art exhibit I mentioned earlier

I'm obsessed with the clouds.  Taken this week.

Another shot from Emily's family photo shoot.

Workin it at work.  This is my uniform.

Emily with the mustache french fry at Red Robin.

Now me with the mustache french fry at Red Robin.

Megan, me, Mariah, Kristen, Kyleygirl, Alex and her sister Maddie at Yogurtland

A kind of fuzzy shot of the last night of all of us together.  Deeds is in this picture, but Alex was too late...

Cute little picture frames someone put up in the downstairs MARB bathroom.  They each said things like "You're beautiful," etc.

Not the most flattering picture of me, but this was us at the dance earlier this semester after my work party.  I ate those otterpops like crazy.  Afterwards we went to our friend's house to play more Just Dance.  That was a really fun night.

Emily and our new friend Jacob country dancing together.  We went country swing dancing a few times (I think I 've blogged about it a little bit.)  So fun.

Emily waiting for the nachos to be done at her house in Colorado.  It was a funny moment.
Us at that dance I mentioned earlier.  

Us after Red Robin in Colorado.  I think it's becoming more apparent that I'm missing her like crazy with how many pictures of us I'm putting up.  Maybe it's a bad idea to also be listening to The National right now.

This is us from the summer and my first picture I ever put up on Instagram.  You can tell my hair's a lot lighter and shorter.
This is from the Hilary Weeks fireside we went to together.  Sorry I'm too lazy to figure out how to turn it right-side up.

Yet another random picture from the ID concert.

A picture of the parallel parking job this guy did on the night of the concert.  It was UNBELIEVABLY close.  It's not even funny how close he was to both cars--less than 2 inches on both sides.
So I recognize that this is a pretty scattered Week in Pics.  I just put up pictures that I personally wanted to remember.  I need to put more down, but it's not going to happen tonight as it's already been an hour.

As long as we're going with the random theme, I'm going to finish up by writing some thoughts I've been bouncing around this week.  I love dancing.  I feel like when you dance with someone, for those 3.5 minutes, you get to experience some type of connection with them.  Sometimes I pretend that for that one song that I get to dance with them, we're in love.  Dancing is like magic.

Here's a dance clip from my dance test on the Waltz.  It's from my Dance 180, beginning social dance class. I did a terrible job (so did my partner), but whatever.  He told me after that he only got two hours of sleep that night and was really out of it.  It took us forever to start.  Oh, and I can't get it to rotate...I like my dress and shoes.

I think that's it for now.  I'm ready to go to bed, that's why.  Next time I write I'll try to write something more uplifting, inspiring, funny...